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This is probably...

...going to keep happening for awhile. Some of this is old shit so if you don't want to read it again, skip over this entry....


We've been out of the house long enough now for the major effects of the stress to subside, and today, I began mourning what we lost.

We lost a house we had plans and dreams for, which turned out to be a wreck.

I lost over 50K that I invested in it before Queen Bitch of Hell took it from me.

Another bitch, known as the Oathbreaker, stole certain irreplaceable items from me, and that of all things, is what bothers me the most.

I can eventually get over the loss of the house and the money invested in it - after all, it's just a 'thing' and the money isn't as important as many other things in life........however, losing certain irreplaceable objects to a certain Oathbreaker has left a lasting wound in my heart.

The only consolation I have is she will continue to experience extremely bad luck, including physical injury, till she returns them. If she's sold them off for her own benefit she will never be free of the bad luck. It's her payment for what she has done.

I am visualizing a plain box on my porch, probably delivered by UPS, which is unusually heavy. In it are some - or all - of the things she stole from me.

I hope to see that box soon, because if I don't, it'll take a long time for that wound in my heart to scab over, and in the meanwhile, the one who stole the items will never achieve success, will continue to lose friends and loved ones, will never realize her dreams. That's little comfort to me, who would rather have the items back and feel whole again.




 

Comments

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dragonhearth
Aug. 15th, 2012 05:45 am (UTC)
You absolutely need space to vent, and space to mourn. But please keep in mind that if you put limits on the magic ie, "I need this to heal" you will limit yourself from healing. Decide to move on and that it will come back to her someway that it is supposed to, and let that go, and fill in the hole. You should not be waiting for your items retunred in order to heal. You need to heal, and the items will come back or not, but either way you will be better and stronger. The one thing no one can take away from you is your strength and will. So quit giving it away to someone else, and take the strength within and be well. You can move past this because you are a strong powerful witch and woman. Hugs to you with what all you have gone through. Many would not have made it. YOU did. YOU are worthy, and you deserve to have a better place than you had before, and new things.
nebris
Aug. 15th, 2012 09:59 am (UTC)
Yes.

~M~
magyarok_saman
Aug. 15th, 2012 02:27 pm (UTC)
Thank you...

Some of what she stole was family heirlooms that cannot be replaced. That hurts the most.

I expect that, given time, the pangs will get less and less.

Thank you again.

L
nebris
Aug. 15th, 2012 09:59 am (UTC)
Unfortunately darling, what you have wished upon her is exactly what her life has always been like and I have little doubt that it will remain the same [meaning worse and worse] until the day she dies. I don't know what she did the last time around, but it must have been a motherfucker..and her next Turn on The Wheel promises to be just as harsh.

~M~
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